ONE Year...!

One year ago,...exactly one year passed since i launched this blog .....!!

actually it wasn't my first trial in the world of blogging but i can consider it the 1st one to b published in public for everybody ,.....before i started"Ummah on blog spot i passed through some issues that made me stop writing in my past blog that wasn't mature as i consider Ummah . one day i was commenting on another blog & i thought that ,....'ok mayb it's time to come back to writing in a blog totally controlled by me'..... & i started Ummah.

In Ummah i wrote alot about different issues ,....politics,..religion,...current issues,...thoughts ,...etc. ,...i wrote & i wrote till it became kind of a daily habit & i enjoyed it ,....but unfortunately i passed trough a period of time that i was kind of blocked as i mentioned before & i felt that it's gonna be the 1st & the last year for Ummah ,......but mayb i didn't want that to happen so i tried to come back ,...mayb not with the same rate as before but in a way to bring Ummah back to life & mayb to bring me also back to a previous state.....!!


dunno if my trial is gonna work ,...dunno if there will be a real 2nd year or not,.....but what i know that time will make me know.....!!!

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our lives are made
in these small hours
these little wonders,
these twists & turns of fate
time falls away,
in these small hours,
these small hours still remain


Little Wonders
Meet The Robinsons

Important-Urgent Area....!!

being in the "Important-Urgent"area for along time is really irritating ,....it's always said that the person can manage things to avoid reaching this area,...but it turned out that the person sometimes doesn't have the choice when there's no chance to manage things coz everything is happening with high rate and accumulating every moment.

it's bothering to be trapped in this area for weeks or even days......it sometimes makes many things meaningless ,....coz the person just goes in similar cycles & races everyday....!!!

Hypnerotomachia Poliphili....!!(Quotes 11)

"Never invest your self in anything so deeply that its failure could cost you Your happiness"

from "The Rule Of Four"

A quote i read more that a year ago in a novel 'The Rule Of Four' ,...which was about Princton university students who try to decode the mysteries of " Hypnerotomachia Poliphili " -a Greek illustrated book - & it was a so hard task.....!!

actually i didn't like the novel so much although it was recommended by more that 1 person,....but i remembered some quotes in it & this is one of them.
one of those students -Tom i guess- quoted that part from his mother when he was getting deeply in his hard task & forgetting everything else & when things got more & more complicated.

i thought about that quote more than once from different approaches ,.........some times i felt it may be demotivating to be controlled by the idea of the probable failure coz here one will not put much effort in almost anything as there is always the risk ,....it can b kind of cowardness or staying in the safe meaningless side all the time.....!!

other times i thought of the quote in another way,...i thought that it's about having balance in life,....having different dimensions to give a meaning for the human life,.....having various parallel things that backup each other in case of a failure or defect from any kind in any one of them......i.e : not being single minded even if it's for a good objective or cause as in case of the novel Tom& his friends put so so much effort in this thesis which affected or ruined other dimensions in their lives ,...so i thought about Tom's mum quote as a wise one to some extent coz it seeks parallelism & diversification in life that humans sometime forget in the cycles & races of daily life as if they r just searching for the "Hypnerotomachia Poliphili" mysteries forever .....!!!

And It Came True...!

One day I wished to stop blogging so much,…!!!

when it became kind of a daily habit ,….i was spending so much time on it but I was not writing just for writing,…I was writing coz I felt like writing ,…I enjoyed it….I had the words in my mind pushing each other till they came out through my fingers to a web page or a paper…!!

That was few months ago ,…..but as nth remains the same,….it changed & my wish began to come true,…or lets say dramatically true,…..i lost my appetite to write for a reason or another ,…although I had ideas,..thoughts,….& more to write about ,…... Although the words were there pushing each other to find a way out., but I became unable to write as b4,…..as if it was blocked somehow ,...it's like leaving sb or sth for a long time ,....& coming back long time later,....it's hardly the same as it was in the beginning........ !!

& as I dnt write just to fill pages with anyth,…..i stopped writing till I regain my passion towards my blog,……in addition to all that became busier most of the time ,…..so my blog kind of died,….actually I dnt like to think it did :( ,…I make myself feel that it’s just an open break,... & whenever i pass by it i have the tendency to write & than i go away after few moments & i fell as if i miss it & miss writing & even a marwa-a friend that turned out to b following the blog- told me once that she missed my blogs ^o),….but seems that i'm fooling myself & my blog is so so close to death.

Dunno whether I’ll announce its official death soon b4 its age becomes 1 year (10 days from 2day),…..dunno if I’ll stop writing here but regain the ability to write anywhere else,…..dunno if anyth is gonna become better….!!

Really dunno,…but seems the wish I made one day ,….came more than true ,...FREAKIN' true…….!!