Finally I'm almost done with being a student,...actually i'm not an official graduate,..but according to the traditions ppl used to congratulate each others after the last exam considering the fact that the big rocks are over & this is really a good feeling..!!
Actually i'm not gonna write my thoughts about my feelings towards approaching the end of a 5-year phase,...mayb later...I just wanted to write random thoughts right now..!!
After the last exam i had no specific feeling,...some1 looked to me & said WOW it's over we should be over the moon,...she was so excited & still i felt nothing,...i just felt al7amdolelah & went home in silence as if it was a normal day or even more than normal...!!
here i thought about my reactions & found out that i have no extreme-or even more than the normal- feelings or reactions whatever happens...!
i dnt get so excited about sth,..i dnt get so happy,...i dnt get so sad,...i dnt get so impressed,...i dnt get so overwhelmed,..i dnt get so surprized ...etc.
mayb i have a high level of those feelings in certain occasions *,...but still this doesnt appear on me..!!
moreover, i dnt have "favourites" ; i.e: i dnt have a favourite color,music,singer,drink,food,style,place,company of ppl,writer,poet,sport,tv show,brand,subject,...to the end of the things & ppl prefer over each other...!!
i can try evth & get adapted with any circumstances & not get biased by anyth...!!
to sum up nth almost makes difference & to a point it's ok to b so neutral , but being neutral in the feelings & reactions is weird sometimes especially for the others...but anyway that's how it works with me for now...!!!
it's all the same,..i have no high expectations from the external factors,...i can expect the coming phases so i dnt get surprised or over react,..actually i sometimes under-react...!!
but all this doesnt oppose the fact that i'm satisfied al7amdolelah :)
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*Actually i remember an occasion when i had the peaks of the good feelings,..this was with the best team i've ever worked with -for around 8 months-,..& still evth is engraved inside me :)
