Define:"Motadayen"..!

I guess we've all been in a situation where u describe some1 as "Motadayen" or find some1 introduced to u as "Motadayen"...!!

actually sometimes i used to use the word,..till i felt that it's a flexible word used by each one according to his perception,..so i began to ask myself what is the definition of "Motadayen".. ?!



Ok,..1st let me mention that i'm really obsessed by definitions, dependencies,variables & constants in analysis,..judgements,..decision making...etc

so asking myself about the definition of "Motadayen" is a part of making sure that i'm using the right word in the right place , & it's also a way to make sure that i dnt miscommunicate with others when we mention the word "Motadayen"...!!



According to my observations i felt that most of the ppl tend to describe some1 as "Motadayen" for his image plus the apparent "3ebadat",....for example;
having a beard
wearing hejab or even having a certain style in clothes
saying "Jazakomo Allaho 7'ayran" instead of thanx or merci
avoiding music
fasting "al nawafel"
writing religion-related blogs or even copying them
carry a "Mos7af" all the time
using verses from Quran as signatures,status,personal msg's,..etc
attending periodic lectures for a certain she7' in a mosque or sth
talking with ppl alot about religious issues
forwarding religious e-mails
........etc

so those were examples of things that ring the bell of "Tadayon" for many ppl,...even they dnt know the person ,..they just look make the conclusion & label him as "Motadayen" & begin to deal with him from this POV..!!

actually i dnt have a problem with anyth i mentioned above,..on the contrary i appreciate all that & i know how valuable they r for the person,...but still can't make them criteria for favoring some ppl & categorize them as "Motadayenen" ...coz after all this is just one dimension of the human life ,...we cant forget the unapparent "3ebadat",..the human relations ,...the manners,..& b4 anyth the INTENTION behind any action,...all that complete the image & make the judgement closer to the truth...!!

so b4 any1-who doesnt know me-thinks that i'm messing up & that i have problems or complications like some ppl do when it comes to religious issues,...Al7amdulelah i'm not,...!!!
i'm just trying to understand the usage of a word with no specific definition for most of the ppl,...& i bet that if i ask a random sample of ppl about the word,...they'll give totally different answers or even wont b able to give a justified explanation....!!!


let me add another point that makes me uncomfortable with using this word. If we assume that ppl judge a person & call him "Motadayen" based on religion related behavior (3ebadat,clothes,words,..etc)...is it their right to judge & categorize ppl?...!!!
aint it just Allah who can judge ppl & categorize them (فلا تزكوا انفسكم هو اعلم بمن اتقى),..accept or turn their actions (إنما يتقبل الله من المتقين),...knows their intentions & what's really in their hearts...(ربكم أعلم بما في نفوسكم إن تكونوا صالحين فإنه كان للأوابين غفورا),...aint it all out of the human being scope.....?!

i can't get why ppl insist on giving each other vague descriptions like "Motadayen" or "Moltazem"-which is the higher version i guess- & i dont wanna go through it coz i'm not that aware of the rating system used in such cases....& i dnt know when exactly the person get promoted from level to another & who decides this?!!!!


I know all what i say may not make sense for u & u may consider it exaggeration,...but i really think about this issue alot,...so i thought about sharing mayb some1 can shed some light on sides i cant figure out...!!!

& after all i believe that Allah gave us all the best rank ever coz we r "Muslims" :)

A7'er El 3an2od..!

"Sometimes we believe that sticking to our friends equals supporting them in any decision they do.. But that is only possible when there's no hope at all in fixing things.. What if there was ? And your friend would, sink down in life and gloominess when he's got a great shot in being someone a lot better ?

Then fight them back, and make their path down clear, and their path up as clear. So they see what you want them to fight for..

And that was the learned lesson from the last episode.. Do not let your dear ones, just go down with the flow."

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this was a quote from a friend's thought,...actually i read this thought more than once , stopped @ some phrases each time & surprisingly it turned out that the same bell rang for both of us when we read it...!!!

mayb she was talking about a certain situation,..but for me the "dear ones" mainly include my family & the very few ppl who could approach the level of sisters & brothers like u,...!!!

i was-& still-a big looser in making strong friendships ,....& i am satisfied with that coz one cant take evth in life & i got adapted to that in a way or another,....but in a couple of years i could gain very very few good relations-or that's how i personally feel from my side-with ppl i appreciate ,.... one of those is a brotherhood relation which makes me care & worry about some1 more than many ppl i met years ago,...it's u..!!
it may b a temporary thing ,...i have no idea how long it'll last but i'm sure it'll leave a good memory after all..!!

i know that i'm not good @ helping ppl,...neither @ helping myself when it comes to feeling down,depressed , frustrated or any dark feelings,...yeah,i always make trials to support u ,....& i know they mayb meaningless sometimes,....i dunno if u just listen to me coz u dnt wanna tell me how annoying i am...,&i'm not sure if they make any difference for u ,...but i cant help seeing u getting down & say nth,...that's y i always try to fight u back coz i believe u can be some1 alot better...!!

mayb u lose faith in urself sometimes,...but i dont & i wont isA ..!sometimes u say it's over ,..it's your end...i just smile coz i know it's not real,...i know they'r just desperate thoughts in tough moments,..& i know that u won't be broken,...& even when u r about to swear that u r gonna surrender,...i dnt panic coz i believe u wont...!!

i remember one day when u said u'd quit,...i didt push u to stay or blame u for ur thoughts,..coz i knew that u wouldn't quit,..i knew that u would go wander in the streets ,.. think & re-think then come back with ur final decision to stay,....!!

that day i didnt tell u i knew wouldn't quit ,...though i was almost sure,...& even if u decided to quit i would respect ur choice coz i would be sure it was not a childish decision...!!

let me tell u a little secret,...when i told u about the freakin' dream i had , i didnt tell u about a weird thing,...u were really broken in the dream,..i kept asking Why?..,u were about to cry , i shed tears & when i woke up i found tears on my face & on the pillow,...i dnt remember another time when i woke up crying,....so y all that?...simply coz i couldnt c u broken,....i couldnt stand seeing u destroying urself,...i couldnt believe that u surrendered...!!!


so mayb i dnt know all ur problems to judge ,..& mayb i dnt have enough info so i just overload u with my expectations & push u hard sometimes to carry on when u r not able anymore,...!

but actually i dnt wanna know anyth more than what i know which is ; u r able to get over anyth,...u will never surrender,...u have the strength to face ur problems ,..u have ppl who believe in u & pray for u,...u have values to guide u ...& b4 anyth u have Allah's guidance & protection as long as u believe...!!!

so it happnes that u feel so down,...it seems that the world turned its back to u ,..all the doors r locked & there's no way out,...u begin to lose ur strength,...u dnt wanna try anymore ,....u lose belief in urself ,...BUT even at this point i belive in the person i knew,..the real u,..i believe u can find a way out even if it seems impossible,...i believe that u wont fall,...!!


finally,...i know that u won't let ppl who trust u down ,...but even if u r obliged to,...plz dnt lose ur values & dnt let urself down,....coz if u lose urself u'll lose evth.....& i know u wont :)


dunno if this means anyth for u,...but after all years will pass,..each one will go in a way,..only the memories remain,...hopefully we'll look back & smile for good memories even in the toughest moments ever....!!

God bless u :)

Facebook Driven Life..!

since the day facebook was launched,it grew bigger & bigger each day with more ppl registering ,starting groups,creating applications,...etc.

for sure anyth can b used wisely or in a crazy way according to the person's control on it, but as i notice many ppl around using facebook as if it were the center of the life i just call it a "facebook driven life"...!!

if u look to some1 of this type of ppl u'll find him starting his day opening the browser to check facebook.
he searches for a catchy statement to write as the status wishing to get as much comments as possible from others .u may find silly statements changing frequently just to satisfy an inner need for ppl attention,appreciation,sympathy or anyth else he lacks.
u may find some1 announcing that his "soba3 regly el so3'ayar beyewga3ny" as his status,..& his friends just reply to wish him speed recovery or even make fun of him.
u may find som1 writing hidden messages for another friend,announcing sth,cursing some1,revealing a feeling,releasing anger...etc.

u also find him craving for any comment on his wall or anyth in his profile to comment back,...& if there's nth he just plays some games,..take quizzes,..add applications to feel that he made sth new,...till he finds some1 online to chat or till he gets a comment to read & reply...!!

he always adds albums & photos ,& u find him waiting desperately for more comments on his latest photos-sometimes this is due to an inner lack of confidence or just a search for popularity-.the photos comments is a crazy part in most cases & it always makes me laugh or even feel sick of the triviality it shows.

if it's a girls' community,..u find a certain style of comments such as :
"ooooooh my god ,u look so gorgeous" (even if she believes that the other one looks ugly)
"oh sweetie,...miss u so much" (even if she can't stand her)
"luf u,..muaaah" (i hate this kind of sound effects...yuk)
"Woooooooow,...u look like an angel" (even if she looks like a real devil without horns)
"Thaaaaaaaanx for ur sweeeeeet words,..kisses" (so what? ,...words r free,...dnt just live in the lie)
"u really look cute,...miss u mooooot" (so what about dialing her phone no. if u really miss her..!!?)

on the other hand if it's a boys' community,..u find another style of comments such as:
"eih ya maaaaan,...gamda a7'er 7aga "
"ah ya 3am ba2a,...maaaashy ;)"
"eshta ya prince"
"c u so soon dude"
& more of the vulgar & tough comments i dnt know for sure,..but anyway it's a matter of saying anyth about ayth ,..just to comment @ satisfy real & virtual needs....!!

actually y may find obsessed ppl hurrying to take photos for themselves anywhere & anytime just to add new albums & get more comments ,...& if a person is more & more obsessed with facebook u may find sth like "fatakat lovers" group or "mido"fun page....just to show their photos,& hear flattering from others,...how silly...!!!!

so this was just a part of the "facebook driven life",... it is not the worst case,..& some of it is acceptable & normal sometimes,...& we all use facebook for different purposes...but it can be bad if some1 is really obsessed with it that he sticks to it most of the time & seeks a satisfaction for his inner needs through it...!!!

so it's all about balance & wise use of anyth..!

Greatness Is Never a Given..!

on 20/1/09 the whole world watched the inauguration of Barack Obama the new president of the the United States of America,..& the 1st of african origins.

surely i was interested to watch the ceremony , neither coz i like Obama nor coz i have high expectations from him concerning his foreign policy like some ppl do.i do know that the american foreign policy is pragmatic & days will proveto ppl that they were wrong & so optimistic to think that america will deal with the middle east gently just becoz Bush had gone...!!

i was just interested to c sth different,..sth i've never seen in my country & the surrounding ones(& may i wont c it till i die...!).

i wanted to watch the transfer of authority (which i've never witnessed in my life) , the EX-presidentS shaking hands & congratulating the new one (not from the graveyard like here),..the speeches (which i've never had patience to listen to from our president through my whole life),..the oath(which is a fake here) ,.. the gathering of the nation (which doesnt happen for any political reason coz they may go to jail after all if they r more than 5..!) ,..the shared celebrations (which we dont have the opportunity to experience) , the inspiration & the power of dreams (which r lost words in our daily vocabulary ) ....etc.

mayb some1 will say i'm just exaggerating coz i'm impressed by this freakin country-USA- which is not perfect after all .it has many many defects & problems internally & externally,..there r concerns related to some issues such as the election process,the democracy,the discrimination,..etc.

i do agree on the 2nd part it's not perfect & ppl just get impressed by it more than they supposed to,...& i'm not one of those, though i dnt agree to the 1st part coz i'm not exaggerating ,..i'm mentioning facts that evbody knows,...we r waaaay far from them in the democracy to the extent that we cant imagine a day when we can c a peaceful transfer of authority,..or c an EX-president alive,..or a normal man reaching this position ...it's kind of madness if u just think this would happen one day....!!

so after all it was an interesting event to watch,...just as an audience,..coz anyway if this man is different he'll b different to his country & his ppl,...no1 here should expect a better era (mayb it can b worse,..who knows?)...& it's not enough to wait the miracles from outside,...& after all evbody should learn the lesson & remember somthose words which i quote from Obama's inaugural address :
"Greatness is never a given , it must be earned."...!!!!

The White Coated Organism (AKA Dr's) Journey..!

finally it's over ,..the long journey is over,..after 6 years(actually 7,never mind with numbers it's a complicated issue) my sister has finished her final year-the 6th-in medicine (actually not the final officially,but never mind it's a complicated issue) :D
as a matter of fact i was kind of involved in this journey so i'm celebrating her freedom(actually not a total freedom,coz...or never mind this is a complicated issue) by writing down some notes & thoughts concerning this journey..!!

one of the noticeable things that any medical student face is ppl's non-stop inquiries & comments concerning evthing,..& in most case they r so silly & repeated.
so let me mention some of those common comments & questions in a chronological order starting from the 1st year,..so here we go.

-in the 1st year:

*congratulations,but take care it's a loooong journey :s,..is it 6 or 7 years?...do u have a preparatory year?
{here u have to explain the system briefly ,being sure that no1 will get it..!!}

*OMG,u have a skeleton at home ,u study on real corpse ?!! poor girl,...how do u stand all this ...!!!!
{here u just smile & say it's ok trying to get out of this conversation}


-in the 2nd year:

*how's studying?...oh,u study anatomy...do u really deal with real corpses?(again),..i heared that some ppl get shocked & lose their consciousness in such situations,..don't u?!!!!
{here u try not to lose ur temper & say that u've heared this Q millions of times & u can stand the dead ppl coz they dont ask those silly Q's}

*do u have normal vacations like everybody?...i get lost in ur system...!!
{here u have to explain that the 1st four years are normal}


-in the 3rd year:

*sorry,which year is it?..the 2nd or the 3rd? how many years left?!..ur system is weird..!!
{here u explain-for the millionth time-that it's normal NORMAL in the 1st 4 years}

*which specialization would u like to choose?
{here u have to explain that it's early to ask this Q+it's a complicated issue}


-in the 4th year:

*so do u have a summer vacation?..i know some years are merged & u dnt have a summer vacation...!!!
{here u use all ur storage of patience to answer & say that the 1st 4 years are totally N-O-R-M-A-L...NORMAL!}

*oh,tell me,which specialization will u choose?
{again,u just explain that it's early to ask NOW..!}

-in the 5th year:

*is it ur final year?...i got lost in ur system & dunno anymore in which year u r ?

{here u force urself to explain quickly with a fake smile on ur face ..!!}

*(after few month)...r u still in the 5th year?...OMG,..it's a tough way u chose...ur friends in other faculties have just graduated...!!

{here u just find an inner voice saying,..SO WHAT?}

*oh,..u deal with real patients,...do u operate on them?

*haven't u got specialized yet...!!!?...do u have anyth in mind?...what about pediatric,it seems easy,...or ophthalmology ,we all wear glasses (with a silly laugh),..or or or (mentioning all the specializations they've ever heared about including dentistry..!!!!)

{here u have to confirm -for the millionth time-that the specialization is a big issue}

-in the 6th year:

*so how many years left?,..i guess it must b the final year..!!

{here -for the 1st time ever-u can say YES without any addetional explanation}

*so u r getting specialized this year?!!

{here -for the billionth time-u explain that the specialization issue is affected by many factors ,& not just a piece of cake..!}

-after the 6th year:

u think that the Q's are over but unfortunatly u find another flow of Q's

*so r u now an official graduate?

*what r the next steps?

*will u get specialized now?

*what ...how..why..who..which............etc.

& the process continues...!!

so this was shot from the journey of a medical student ,..& after all i just can say congratulations for surviving , may Allah be with u in the next phase & give u the patience to carry on & to answer the silly questions ,....after all it's ur destiny & u chose it ;)

ارحل و عارك فى يديك

Farouk Gowaida's latest poem which is gonna b published on Al Ahram -friday 9/1/09 issue

For Bush

ارحل و عارك فى يديك

Part(1)

part(2)

part(3)

The Soda Behavior..(Personal Traits)!

Being an observer of evth around , i can c some significant common personal traits in most of the egyptians (& mayb most of the arabs,& i say MOST coz i'm totally against generalization in anyth) ,..anyway i thought about writing them down.
i intended to start with one trait i call "The Soda Behavior",& i was encouraged by the current situation we all live!!

"The Soda Behavior" is simply the kind of behavior that appears when the person gets so shaken by incidents or even words that he gets internally stimulated & close to explosion, this happens for a certain period before reaching equilibrium state automatically again.
This is like the case of a soda can or bottle when it gets shaken,..the bubbles goes crazily inside the container till u leave it to settle down or just open it to release the pressure & let it explode...!!

that's how most of the arabs behave in most of the situations they face,..starting from their tiny daily life situations,..ending by the big BIG issues.
whatever the issue is u can c the person so frustrated or excited that u feel he's gonna make extraordinary actions & take courageous moves.u can feel it in his excitement & hear it in his voice.actually u may even feel as if all the enthusiasm in the world is like a super fuel for his soul.
but unfortunately by time u can c all this fading,..the shake effect is vanishing,..the bubbles r settling down,...the internal voice is getting silenced,..evth is going back to the equilibrium state as if nth happened...!!

if u think for few moments u can remember many many situations in which u or any1 else u know were involved & followed this "Soda Behaviour"..!!

u can c it when a person faces corruption or injustice in his society or work , when he gets betrayed by another one , when he is misjudged or ill treated by a higher authority,when his human rights r not granted in his country, when he stands for a humanitarian cause, ...etc.

u can notice the curve of his behavior which reaches the peak when he shouts,curses,take heroic decisions..etc.then u can c the decline with a variable slope- depending on the issue-where he ,after all,ends by forgetting about the issue ,giving up,or getting adapted to it's severity & of course taking NO significant action.

surely this is not the case all the time with evbody,..that's y i mentioned the words "common" & "most" @ the beginning ,..but after all i guess it's so obvious & we frequently c it around & mayb that's one of the reasons for remaining as retarded societies & nations ,coz ppl insist on dealing with each & every issue with this "Soda Behavior"...!!

Gratitude Book..!

the Gratitude Book is sth i've passed by on TV & websites,..it's a way to practice gratitude on daily basis ,...it's a spiritual habit in the 1st place,...!

all u have to do is to:

-bring a small notebook

-spend few minutes each day to write 5 blessings (not necessarily 5,...u can write any no.,...but preferable a fixed no. to make it a habit )

-try to focus on what u write & feel the gratitude for each thing u write-write anyth & evth makes u feel grateful..,even if it seems tiny

-u may write the same blessing from different prespectives -u can make it i a fixed time in the day (once u wake up /or before u sleep)or any time

- if u forget it one day try to write'm down the next day aside with the new 5 i guess it's reasonable,..coz it's a kind of an interpretation for:

لَئِن شَكَرْتُمْ لأَزِيدَنَّكُم

ْوَإِن تَعُدُّواْ نِعْمَةَ اللّهِ لاَ تُحْصُوهَا إِنَّ اللّهَ لَغَفُورٌ رَّحِيمٌ

practicing gratitude on daily basis makes u focus on evth around u to extract the daily 5 ne3am ,...u'll never underestimate a ne3ma,...u'll discover some ne3am u used to take for granted in ur life...!!

i just wanted to share it with u,..so if u find it a good idea,..go buy a small notebook & start ,...& it'd be a good idea to buy 2 & give it as a giftt to some1 to start with u.. :)

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originally written on 27/10/08

Online War..!

Wars in the past used to be just by traditional weapons,...Nowadays,wars take new dimenssions in the world especially after the enormous global technological revolution...!

internet is on the top of the modern weapons used in wars,...& as we r in the middle of a severe war in Gaza-actually the worst in the past few years-we can c the Israeli ppl using this weapon to DECEIVE the world by spreading their LIES everywhere on websites ,webblogs,facebook,youtube,flicker,twitter,...etc.

& since we,arabs,are stuck in our argument ; we r not aware enough of this effective weapon ,..& we dont use it as much as they do to promote our cause , tell the whole world about the Israeli CRIMES in Palestine in the past decades & show every1 who is the real VICTIM...!!


one of the examples they use now is a facebook application to count Qassam rockets hitting Israel & update the user's status automatically HERE ,...they r making a big deal out of small things to make the world believe that they r suffering not TORTURING innocent ppl in Gaza....!!
they also fill their blogs with topics-full of lies or half truth- tagged (Gaza & Israel) to be on the top of the results when any1 searches..!!!
they play their DIRTY game on all the levels & use all the available weapons,...& that's what the war about....!!!

on the other hand i could find some efforts from arab bloggers to blog for Gaza & support the cause online like :
Bent Masreya غزة.. شارك في المعركة اونلاين
Gaza Talk How to resist Online ?

i also can mention a widget by Aljazeera (The Death Toll) which counts the number of dead ppl on both sides & shows the huge difference

so if u r a blooger,programmer, or even just a facebook member ,..if u have sth to do about this,..check the suggested ideas in the previous links & mayb u can write a fair topic in english or any language to talk to the world or make a useful application to support the cause,...who knows mayb it makes a difference more than just talking to ourselves in the same traditional way all the time...& fortunately this is an available & legal weapon but just needs new & effective ideas to make use of it...!!

Magic Moments..!!

The following is a part of paulo coelho's novel "By the river piedra i sat down & wept",...actually i didnt like it that much although it was recommended for me by more than 1 person ,..but those were the 2 pages which got stuck to my mind...!!

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You have to take risks, he said. We will only understand the miracle of life fully when we allow the unexpected to happen.

Every day, God gives us the sun—and also one moment in which we have the ability to change everything that makes us unhappy. Every day, we try to pretend that we haven't perceived that moment, that it doesn't exist—that today is the same as yesterday and will be the same as tomorrow. But if people really pay attention to their everyday lives, they will discover that magic moment. It may arrive in the instant when we are doing something mundane, like putting our front-door key in the lock; it may lie hidden in the quiet that follows the lunch hour or in the thousand and one things that all seem the same to us. But that moment exists—a moment when all the power of the stars becomes a part of us and enables us to perform miracles.

Joy is sometimes a blessing, but it is often a conquest. Our magic moment helps us to change and sends us off in search of our dreams. Yes, we are going to suffer, we will have difficult times, and we will experience many disappointments—but all of this is transitory; it leaves no permanent mark. And one day we will look back with pride and faith at the journey we have taken.

Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps she won't suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow. But when that person looks back—and at some point everyone looks back—she will hear her heart saying, "What have you done with the miracles that God planted in your days? What have you done with the talents God bestowed on you? You buried yourself in a cave because you were fearful of losing those talents. So this is your heritage: the certainty that you wasted your life"

Pitiful are the people who must realize this. Because when they are finally able to believe in miracles, their life's magic moments will have already passed them by.

For The Memory of Someone I've Never Seen..!

I haven't seen this person before he died,...i haven't known anyth about him,...& i even dunno till now, except 1 thing, that he was more than a special person...!!!

he died more than a year ago, & i can c how special he was in the eyes of his friend,..i can hear how different he was in their words,..i can feel how blessed he was from the everlasting grief filling them...!!!

i have seen many ppl,..& seen many kinds of friendship,...but i dnt remember i've seen this kind of eternal friendship,that lasts after death & gets deeper as time passes...i havent seen this loyality towards some1 who has gone,..i haven't seen some1 who leaves a great impact on ppl even if they have never seen him....i have never seen all this before...& i guess i wont c sth as impressive as this again...!!

mayb he's not around -physically- ,...but i can feel his precence all the time coz they feel it,..& as it's a strong feeling ,...its sincerity can touch everybody even if they dunno him...& its strength can make it as visible as the sun for everybody even if they havent seen him... !!

i know i have nth to do with this & i'm not involved to express it coz i didnt experience such a kind of relationships,..but at least i could c it & now i believe that some ppl can really have an extraordinary bond that turns them into 1 person in several bodies,.. so when 1 body goes away ,..he's never really gone ,...& when it seems for ppl that it's an end,...it's not really an end...coz the bond remains forever...!!!

so they were all lucky for having each other & mayb the destiny didnt give them the chance for many years to come,coz it's alwayes the case,perfect moments ends quickly & good ppl leave early(fortunately to a better place) ,..but at least they were given a special relationship , a tremendous memory & a unique feeling that few ppl can experience through their lives,..& before evth they were given the BOND that will last forever...!!


so for the memory of some1 i've never seen i say:
may Allah keep this BOND forever , & gather u all in paradise :)

إِخْوَانًا عَلَى سُرُرٍ مُتَقَابِلِينَ

Chapeau Israel..!

Chapeau Israel...that's all what i can say now !!

u may get astonished & ask y the hell am i saying that about the worst enemy ever?!!!!

but just wait a second i haven't turned insane yet, despite the severe scenes,... the deep pain,..the fading hope,..despite death & destruction,..despite all the darkness around,...i have't lost my mind yet...!

so y am i saying:"Chapeau Israel"?!

coz as usual they won,...& to be fair i have to admit it & greet them for their continuous success,..!!

they didnt win coz they killed hundreds of innocent ppl,...they didnt win coz they destroyed Gaza,..they didnt win coz they have the power ,..they won coz they could get us into an awful trap ,..they could blow in the fire of "Fitna" on all the levels,....no1 is talking now about Israel that much,..ev1 is talking about 7amas,Fat7, E7'wan,Egypt,Qatar,....etc.,..ev1 is arguing if there's a betrayal ,...each1 is blaming a party,...ppl are screaming on TV trying to prove their opinions ,...each unknown journalist or analyst is trying to make use of this opportunity to get in any talk show to say anyth about anyth,....arabs are arguing everywhere & accusing each other,...youth are fighting on chat rooms & forums about the cause,...,ppl are soaked in the tons of contradicted news they hear & read....each1 claims that he knows the whole truth when no1 really has it,....countries,leaders,ppl began to throw each others with words & on the other hand they began to get defensive concerning themselves, forgetting the main issue,...the main crisis,..the main ENEMY....!!!

so it's really justified to say Bravo Israil,...coz they always defeat arabs,..& arabs always help them with their stupidity,triviality,arogance,retardation & ignorance. they always give Israel the way to beat them,...they alwayes give it the best & the easiest chances ever for an enemy to take.

How lucky Israel to have such a kind enemy...& How pathetic we r..!!!

it's really awful but i have to say it & unfortunately seems i'll say it for years to come :"Chapeau Israel"...!!!!!

Nostalgia..!

I say: "A human being is nth but an accumulation of memories & experience."

both are gifts; no matter how good or bad,..no matter how happy or sad..they remain the core of the person.BUT the good memories are the ultimate gift...!!

last year i met 10 ppl who gave me this gift like no1 did b4,...those r my amazing "IT & Media' 08" Team...!

Guys,..i owe u tons of tremendous memories,... i can catch myself smiling at remembering great moments we've LIVED together ,..yeah LIVED ,...i dnt say "spent" or "worked" ,..coz we really lived together for almost 8 months (31July'07-22March'08),...8 months that seemed years,..we had those days when we spent around 12 hours together,....we had those weeks when we met everyday,...we had those months of continuous trainings & work,..we had all those wonderful moments which i will never forget...NEVER!!

i know months passed & it's over....but believe it or not,.. I MISS u all like hell...!!u r the best team ever,..u r the best group of ppl i've worked with,...u r 10 unique,..mmm... teammates,..friends,..brothers & sisters,...dunno what should i call u ,..coz we all had this special relationship that gathered us all the time & built special bonds between totally different 10 personalities!

i believe that i wont have a better team,...i know we went through evth a team can go through,...we had ups & downs ,..we had those tough moments,.but as a whole i can say it's the best experience i have ever gone through,..we were the best team ever,..& even ppl out of the team witnessed that & say it till now ..."You R The Best"...!!

Guys,..i know we still c each others,...but even if i dnt c u physically ,...i can c u in evth around....!!!

i can feel u in every corner we passed by in the faculty,..i can feel u when i pass in midan Salah El Deen,..i can feel u in Nabil el wa2ad,...i can feel u in Crunchy or Boreo Jumbo,..i can feel u when i work on my laptop,..i can feel u when i c my old RAM's,..i can feel u in salé sucré,..i can feel u with Andrew Cramer,...i can feel u in PS,Flash,DW,AE,ZEND,..i can feel u in my flashmemory,..i can feel u in kaspersky,...in can feel u in Carlos Santana,...i can feel u in any chroma,..i can feel u in my digital camera,...i can FEEL & SEE u EVWHERE...!

yeah i feel u evwhere, but i also have those times when i feel this bitter feeling of missing each and every moment we have lived together,...i miss the trainings,..i miss the sweet pain we felt while working for hours,...i miss the brainstorming,...the shooting,..the editing,...the rendering,...i miss the sleepless nights,...i miss our victory moments when ev1 said "IT...u ROCK",..& we said "Al7amdulelah"...!!!

SIMPLY i miss evth,ev1,ev.moment..!!!

i know that many ppl had those feelings for some days after the closing,..they suffer from the "Post Conference Depression ..PCD" for few days ,...but guess what?...i had a "Pre Conference Depression" symptoms,..when i used to look at evth & ev1 & felt bad for imagining that evth was gonna end in few days,...& surely i had a deep "Post Conference Depression",..with severe withdrawal symptoms for long time,....& surprisingly for the 1st time i shed tears for leaving a group of ppl with whom i worked & lived...!!

& the unbelievable thing is that i still have sth inside longing for those days,.. those thoughts become stronger in some moments that i find myself having all the possible expressions on my face as if i'm re-living those moments.

OMG,..i'm digging so deep in memories ,..& guess what?..it brings me this feeling of the bitter-sweet longing for the past,..the sweetness for passing through all that,..& the bitterness for not having those real moments anymore...!!

it may seem weird- for some1 not so emotional & expressive like me-to write this now,..but for me it's not,..coz i always recall those memories whenever i feel bad,..so that i cheer up & smile :)

Guys,i know months & years will pass,...ev1 will go in his way & have his life,..we may c each others & we may not,....but i'm sure the memories wont fade,... i'll c u in evth around,.. i'll always remember u & long for the great moments we lived together,...!!

Gasser,Yasmine,SaraH,Amal,OmEr,Ismail,Negm,Abdu,Tarek,Zizo;I owe u all those tremendous memories :)Thank u for every single moment we lived together :)

Life Spectrum..!

being in contact with different ppl having different mentalities makes me always think , analyze & sometimes come up with theories & analogies between ppl & anyth in life...!

this time i had a little convo. with some1 who almost has 1 priority in his life ,..or mayb i should not call it priority coz one prioritizes when one has multiple things to be managed,...so this person's life is almost dedicated to 1 thing,...he may not have the time to sleep or eat ,...he believes that anyth other than his main goal is useless,...& actually he succeeds to outstand in that one thing....!!!



i'm not gonna judge & say this is good or bad coz after all one's life is one's choice ,...i'm just gonna put emperical models for ppl's approaches in life to show my point of view...& excuse me if i get into math...so here we go...!

i call today's theory :"Life spectrum"...as it deals with the distribution of all the human activities across his life...& i'm gonna examples for clarification...!

1st of all
let:
the x-axis be the different human activities (career,family,entertainment,spirtiuality,charity...etc.)
the y-axis be the weight of each activity,..or the power given to each...!!

& here are 2 examples:

1st:
the type whose life is almost about one thing- like the example i mentioned at the begining-

this type's life spectrum can be modeled by a delta function located @ one point (i.e:one activity),...with maximum amplitued,..while the amplitudes @ the other points are zero ,..or let's say TEND to zero to -b more precise-!!

2nd:
the type whose life is multidimensional ,..those who make different things in life with different weights according to their priorities , they outstand in one thing & @ the same time have other small accomplishments in other fields..!

this type's life spectrum can be modeled by a Gaussian distributed function ,which has a maximum amplitude @ one point (which corresponds to the thing in which the person outstands & puts much efforts ) ,...& has other significant values around the maximum...!!


those r 2 models of life spectra to make my theory clearer,..& surely each one has his own unique model which is formulated by his thoughts & actions.

i believe there's no optimum model for life spectra,...but my personal opinion is that:
the Gaussian(or Normal) distributed spectrum is the closest one to the normal life balance -as its name reveals-coz it increases the person's exposure to different things ,..& gives life new dimenssions.
while the delta spectrum -in my point of view-is a disguised triviality coz the person of this type-even if his delta amplitude is incredibly large- leads a one dimensional life since he mainly believes in one thing ,...does one thing,..& know sone thing...!!

this was the "Life Spectrum" theory,..& this was my personal opinion...!
& now u can think about ur life spectrum & adjust it the way u want coz it's all about ur choice..!!

Life Lessons...!

throughout my life -my short life-i've learnt several things,....one of the most important things i've learnt in the few previous year is:

whenever u have the:time,the health,the energy,the passion,the money,the mental state,the ppl around,the environemnt,or whatever allows u to:

learn sth new,

do "ta3at",

help someone,

gain new experience ,

knock the unknocked doors,

have fun,

take steps forward,

or do any legal & benefecial thing for u & for ppl around u, DO NOT hesitate or postpone ,..just take the chance,..coz there may come times when u dont have the perfect spirtual,mental,phsychological, financial or physical states to help u do whatever u could have done before....!!

so whenever u c the chance,..GRAB IT...!

Celebrate Failure..!

The following thoughts are a message to me before any1 else :)

Enjoy:)

"Celebrate failure"

what a crazy phrase...!

u may wonder "Can any1 celebrate his failure?!
surely the answer is not "Yes he can"...the answer is "YES HE SHOULD"...!!

am i getting crazier...?!

mayb ...but that's what i've learnt from "The Robinsons"....!!

Does this ring any bells..?!..

i guess it does, in case u r a cartoon fan like me :D

it's "Meet The Robinsons" movie by Disney where u can c the ultimate positive attitude ever..!!

excuse me if i'm getting that much into cartoon ,..but i'm sure i'm not the only one here who looks to cartoon as a magnificent world & an amazing source of inspiration as well as entertainment..!

if u watched the movie u surely remember the scene when Lewis failed & began to apologize when the whole family cheered & celebrated his failure..!

if u didnt watch it ,..u can read the quoted part at the end*,..but make sure to watch it later :)

i watched "Meet The Robinsons" more than once ,..but it was just the last time when this phrase began to echo in my mind continuously:

"Celebrate Failure"

"Celebrate Failure"

"Celebrate Failure"

i began to think of the kind of failure which deserves celebration,.. & i called it the "Smart Failure"...!

it's the failure that comes after planning the right way & doing the best ...!

it's the non repeated failure that teaches u sth new & help u know what works & what doesnt...!!

this kind of failure...the "Smart Failure" gives u the right to celebrate...!!

so whenever u face a "Smart Failure" moment,...stop & celebrate coz here u make sure u r not dead yet,...u r still here trying,..u still have the inner passion to go forward ...!!

*
“Okay, that should do it!” Lewis laid down the screwdriver and examined the PB and J invention.

“It’s so exciting … Let her rip, Lewis!” Billie exclaimed, looking excited.

“Quickly,” Art urged. “Uncle Joe can’t hold on much longer!” A red faced Uncle Joe was rocking in his seat, sobbing and sucking his thumb.

“Everybody ready?”

“Go, Carl!” Lewis handed the machine to Carl. Everybody cheered as he activated the invention; it whirred promisingly, then jammed again. “Oh no,” Lewis breathed, sounding apprehensive. Peanut butter and jelly exploded out of the gun, landing on everyone. “Oh no,” Lewis moaned again, burying his face in his hands. “I – I didn’t know, I’m sorry, I’m so sorry!”

“You failed!” cried Bud happily.

“And it was awesome!” Gaston applauded Lewis.

“Exceptional,” Art added.

“Outstanding!” cheered Laszlo.

“Uh … I’ve seen better!” Petunia shrieked, always with a positive attitude.

“From failing, you learn,” Billie told Lewis, shrugging. “From success, not so much!”

تأملات فى حال البلاد و العباد(2)...!!!ا

ا"اللهم أهلك اليهود و النصارى أجمعين...اللهم رمل نساءهم و يتم أطفالهم...اللهم أحصهم عددا و اقتلهم بددا و لا تغادر منهم أحدا.....!!ا"...الخ


اعتدت أن أستمع الى ذلك النوع من الأدعية فى صلاة الجماعة...سواء كان القيام فى رمضان أو حتى فى صلاة الجمعة على مدار العام...و كنت دائما ما ألاحظ الاجتهاد فى الدعاء عند تلك الأجزاء من قبل الامام...و مضاعفة التضرع من قبل المصلين ...و فى ذات الوقت كان ينتابنى شعور بالريبة يثير داخلى الكثير من التساؤلات حول ذلك النوع من الأدعية..و لا يخفى على الكثيرين أن مجرد التساؤل فى مثل تلك الأمور -التى قد اعتيد عليها لسنوات- قد يضع المتسائل فى دائرة الاتهام بالتشكيك فى المأثورات أو عدم نصرة الاسلام...الخ


و لكننى و لأنى أعلم أن هذا الأمر ليس من المعلوم فى الدين بالضرورة ..و أن هناك مجالا للتساؤل عنه ظلت بداخلى تساؤلات.. فكنت أفكر فى موقف الرسول -عليه الصلاة و السلام- فى مثل تلك الأمور
هل دعا مثل تلك الأدعية و بنفس الألفاظ؟
هل كان يدعو فى كل يوم على كل من لا ينتمى للاسلام؟
لماذا لم يدع أن يطبق الله على قومه الأخشبين؟
ألم يدع الرسول قائلا"اللهم اهد قومى فانهم لا يعلمون"..!ا



ثم حاولت أن أجد تفسيرا و أفكر لماذا ينطلق المصلين بكل حواسهم فى التأمين على تلك الأدعية

هل هو حقا حب الاسلام المتقد فى نفوسهم ؟...أم هى تلك المرارة من التى ذاقوا منها ألوانا؟...هل هى الرغبة الدفينة فى الانتقام ؟...أم هو الحب و البغض فى الله؟...أم أنه العجز المسيطر الذى يدفعهم الى الانطلاق فى الدعاء ظنا منهم أنهم بذلك قد أدوا ما عليهم تجاه الاسلام و المسلمين و تطهروا من سلبيتهم و خمولهم التى ما يلبثوا أن يعودوا اليها بمجرد أن تخطو أقدامهم أول خطوة خارج أبواب المسجد؟



و أخذت أتساءل
أليس من الممكن أن يكون أحد المصلين -و هو يدعو عليهم جملة- قد دعا على أمه أو زوجته الكتابية ؟
أليس من الممكن أن يكون أحد المصلين من معتنقى الاسلام حديثا و يكون بذلك داعيا على سائر قومه بدلا من الدعاء لهم بالهداية؟
أليس هناك من غير المسلمين من شوهت فى عقله صورة الاسلام بما كسبت أيدى المسلمين أنفسهم؟
أليس هناك من غير المسلمين من لا يسعون الى ايذاء الاسلام؟ بل و يسعون الى مناصرة قضاياه أحيانا بدافع أنسانى بحت؟
أليس الأقرب الى نفسية المسلم السوية تمنى الخير لمثل هؤلاء بدلا من استجماع كل السخط و الغل و الكراهية و توجيهها اليهم فى سلسلة من الأدعية العامة المرسلة التى تشمل الجميع دون استثناءات تذكر...؟!!ا


الى أخره من التساؤلات التى تتبادر الى ذهنى فى كل وقت أقف خلف امام يدعو فى الصلاة مثل تلك الأدعية...و لا أعلم هل فكر البعض فى ذلك الأمر من تلك الزاوية أم لا...و لأننى لا أملك الاجابة الدقيقة عن كل الأسئلة التى تجول بخاطرى ..قررت أن أختتم حديثى فبجزء عنوانه (الأدعية الاستفزازية) من كتاب "خطابنا الاسلامى فى عصر العولمة"..للدكتوريوسف القرضاوى ...قرأته منذ أعوام قليلة و شعرت أنه يصب فى نفس القضية التى دائما ما تؤرقنى...!ا




الأدعية الاستفزازية



ليس من الموعظة الحسنة اتخاذ الأدعية الاستفزازية في صلوات الجمع وفي قنوت النوازل وغيرها. فبعض الوعاظ والخطباء يدعون الله تعالى: أن يهلك اليهود والنصارى جميعا، وأن ييتم أطفالهم، ويرمل نساءهم، ويجعلهم وأموالهم وأولادهم غنيمة للمسلمين

ومن المعلوم أن في كثير من بلاد المسلمين توجد أقليات من النصارى - وربما من اليهود - وهم مواطنون يشاركون المسلمين في المواطنة، وليس من اللائق أن ندعو بدعوة تشمل هؤلاء بالهلاك والدمار؛ إنما اللائق والمناسب أن ندعو على اليهود الغاصبين المعتدين، وأن ندعو على الصليبيين الحاقدين الظالمين، لا على كل اليهود والنصارى.

على أني لم أجد في أدعية القرآن ولا في أدعية الرسول ولا في أدعية الصحابة مثل هذه الدعوات المثيرة: يتم أطفالهم، ورمل نساءهم، وأمثالها. بل أدعية القرآن مثل: {ربنا أفرغ علينا صبرا وثبت أقدامنا وانصرنا على القوم الكافرين} (البقرة: 250). {ربنا لا تجعلنا فتنة للقوم الظالمين. ونجنا برحمتك من القوم الكافرين}ا

ومن أدعية الرسول: "اللهم منزل الكتاب ومجري السحاب وهازم الأحزاب اهزمهم وانصرنا عليهم

"اللهم إنا نجعلك في نحورهم، ونعوذ بك من شرورهم"

وقد قال تعالى: {ادعوا ربكم تضرعا وخفية إنه لا يحب المعتدين} (الأعراف: 55). أي لا يحب الذين يعتدون ويتجاوزون في دعائهم

وبعض الخطباء يدعون الله تعالى بابادة الكفار جميعا و لا يبقى منهم باقية قائلين"اللهم أحصهم عددا و اقتلهم بددا و لا تغادر منهم أحدا"و هذا دعاء دعا به أحد الصحابة على من عذبوه و اخوانه و عرضوهم للقتل و الصلب،فهو دعاء خاص،فجاء هؤلاء الخطباء و جعلوه عاما، و استخدام الخاص فى موضع العام من أسباب الزيغ و انحراف التفكير

و لا خلاف أن الدعاء باهلاك الكافرين جميعا "أن يقتلهم بددا و لا يبقى منهم أحدا" ينافى ما أخبر به القران أن كفر الكافرين واقع بمشيئة الله تعالى:{ولو شاء ربك لأمن من فى الأرض كلهم جميع }(يونس: 99)ا

فمن ذا الذى يعارض مشيئة رب العالمين؟

X Y Z

X Y Z....when we c them we just remember "Variables",....!!
in mathematics or physics or anth we just frequently use them to refer to the variables or the different parameters...but what are variables for me?!

X Y Z..etc. or variables are not just related to science & equations,...for me variables r a real ACHE ,... dunno if it was my nature or it just turned like that in the few past years,...mayb i got affected by the kind of study i'm involved in ,....but whatever the reason is,..it's really a big deal for me...!

whenever i think about anyth ,..analyze any issue ,..i just look to evth & try to separate the related constants & variables ,...& unfortunately variables r alwayes more than constants & consequently opinions ,..decisions,..judgements are really so hard.

surely this confuses me alot most of the time & it may even bother me sometimes,...but i guess it's not that bad,..on the contrary; it's a good thing to control the way you think & tackle issues even if it makes it harder for the mind to process & give results...!!

ah,..btw;i'm not just getting my life more complicated ^o),...mayb it's just the ALIEN mind's domination :)...!!

Can We Play Together?

back to childhood days......
i remember a common situation i faced a lot when i was a kid,....whenever i went to the club,..the beach,..etc.,....other kids,as usual, used to come & say "Can we be friends?=momken netsa7eb?"or"can we play together?"...etc.


i used to look @ them unsure ^o),...walk away,..or even ignore them as if i heared nth...!!!actually i wasnt an arrogant or spoiled kid ,..i know i was-& still-shy & a bit-or alot-non social,...but when i think about it now i find myself wondering if i-as a kid- had the feeling that friendship can't b built that way,...mayb it wasn't convincing to me starting a friendship by offering or requesting ,...mayb i couldnt get the point of assigning the word "friendship" to a couple of hour relationship,...mayb i had a problem getting so intimate to someone that easy, or even have a problem in my interpersonal chemistry.....dunno..!


anyway seems i went far in analyzing a samall issue as usual :D,...& i guess i had nth like that in mind when i was a little kids ,...so whatever the reason was i used to leave a 1st impression of a boring kid ,...& before some1 says it & i'll say it;i now i'm still leaving a bad FIRST impression,...but i guess not the same manners...i dnt ignore ppl or walk away",..i just dnt go "play"- or let me say in the grown ups terminology-"get along with ppl that easy...!

after all we r the same person :),...me & the kid within :D

The Giant Within..!

August 2008
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when the light is shed to reveal the giant within...!!!